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LELAKI YANG TA PERNAH BERTERIMA KASEH KEATAS SEURG PEREMPUAN YG PNAH SYG AT DY

wahhh.. sekejap jee na RYE kn? pose cm ta smpi sebulan.. asecm 2 mnggu je..tpi yg paleng ak  gram ckl,, ad mamat ny cple gn ak 2 bulan jee..pas2 mynx break bub ak cme akap yg dy to da byk brubah..ta cm **** lak prangai dy to..sbar jee sy gn dy to..nseb bek llki lau ta,pnampar jee ,,ap pn,,jwapanny,,tpi ta pee ak da cple blek gn ex ak.ag baek dri jnatan to..ak syg gle at dy to,,ak ta sngke..ak egt dy to baek cm urg en,upeny,dy pn cme nek urg len..ya allah.jaatny dy o.mke jee nsem cm artis,ckli.ap pun ta bley..tpi kn,,ak ta twu npe ak ny buey knal gnjntan cm dy to..ak ta ksah laa dy to hna ke,cacat ke.. ak ttap akn jge dy cm husband ak..hihi..tpi ak kne abeshkn study dlu,,lau ad takdir ak lulus spm..egt na smbng laja dl bwu pk sal kje,kawen n anything yg pnting..ak na bt mkbpk ak appy n bhge..ak hope ap yg ak impikan ny brjye.hoho..korunk plak?pe cte?ad ap2 yg bleyh share gn ak ta??ak bushan laa sllu dnga sal aki ny..daus laa,,bwak ank dara lari laa,,bt maksiat laa,,kowunk ta bshan ke?cbe laa brubah ckit..kte bkn twu idop n maty..allah tentukn sumeny..kite hanya merancang sjee.allah tentukn..lau kowunk ad a2..share gn ak uk !!

CINTA TERAKHIR !

pade 23/01 ... telah beakhirnya hubungan cinte antare ak dan dya ! dya telah meniggal arn ak krane dye tlah berjumpa dengan penganti bru yg bernama (F) ,, ak ta twu nape dya snggup uat ak cm nyh ! ak twu ak ta lyak untuk dyer! dyer maki2 ak ! ak ttap sbar mendengar ! slame nyh dya berjanji akn setia mnanti ! tpi dya tlah melanggar jnjinya sndiri ! ak mngerti siapa diri ini .. kkyaan tiada erti dlam diri .. ak cuba untuk bhgia kan dya .. tpi sume kbahagiaan 2 musnah dan berakhir dengan perpisahan dan kebencian ! ak ta pnah lpe kan dya ! bila dye sket ak akn jge dyer ! tpi bila ak sket ?? ad ker dyer ksah? ak twu ak ta scantek pompuan 2 ! tpi tolong laa .. ak mrayu .. jgn uat ak cm nyh ! ak ta pnah mynx lbh dri kw ! ak da bgi sume syg dn cinta ak hnya untuk kw sorang ! ak ta na sume harta nan duet kw 2 ! ak just na 1 dri kw KASEH SYG DAN KEBAHAGIAAN ! mengalir airmataku..menemani malam sepiku.. kurindu saat bersamamu.. sukarnya untuku melupakanmu ... dahulu engkau berikan cinta mengapa kini engkau berubah  ? manakah janji akan setia menanti.. jikalau engkw ta lgi cinta katakan saja ak ta ksah ! jdi kw terus membuat ku mnunggu .. resah ini sungguh ta wajar... namun ku ingin ttap bersama dya ,.. untuk selamanya ! ak hope kw kw buleyh berubah dan jdi yg lbih baek dri sbelum ! 

- AK TA AKAN PERNAH LUPEKAN KW SYG -  <3

all about love !

I asked myself, could i be so casual with sex that i would want to fuck with strangers, like she said she wants, i guess it's for pleasure alone and only, and the freedom to say "bye" right after and never see again the person, it's independence in sexual pleasure, i try to put me in that state of mind, in those situations, but i have no desire, i have no desire for people i don't feel safe with, that means i need to build trust and understanding with someone to feel desire for that person, and i'm very picky, so already it takes the time to grow a friendship, which is long and not so easy, because people who match my intellectual and emotional needs are rare, so to feel desire to have sex i would need to meet hundreds of people and yet having to know them deeply, their personality, their intellect, get trust, and it takes time to know i'm mentally safe and satisfied, maybe for women it's easier they can act like holes, so if they want they even don't have to move in the sexual act, they can technically make love even without desire. I'm thinking maybe i'm not awaken yet, i don't know what it is, what if i would know, will i be like a horny beast searching for a fuck on saturday nights, will that sexual need could push me to be casual, maybe that's what i need to try in order to know, but if i have no desire how could i, is there something wrong with me and those primal needs.

tunjukkan ak

musik dari jiwa ..
lagu dari hati ...
cerita  sempurnama canda dan menangis ..
belum ku selami ..
caturan terjadi...
lelah di pukul badai ..
ap mungkin terlerai ...
soalan tersendu ...
balas hampa bisu ..
tuhan tunjuk sesua2 ...
ap dia yang stu itu ...
tunjukkan aku ..

ap bisa ku cinta ..
kamu seperti mana ..
ak dicinta kamu ...
ak di jaga kamu ...
atau kamu terlalu...
indah buat diriku...
beda dri diriku ...
ak pn ta menahu ...

love u !

i could believe it ..
when i heard the new today ..
i had to come and get is straight from u !
then u said u were leavin ..
something sweet  your face ..
i see it's true ...
do tell me about it ..
tell me about plan u're making ..
then ...
tell me 1 thing before i go !!

tentang hidup seseorang yang ak syg?

dulu bila kw ssah..
kw akn cri ak ..
kw ckap hnya ak yg akn mnjadi tempat mngadu kw ..
tpi bila kw da jmpe org yg sngat chantek...
kw tinggal kan ak..
kw bia kan ak derita...
kw biakn ak di dsitu...
kw ta pnah na pk sal org laen ..
kw hanya pnting arn diri kw ..
ak twu ak ta lyak bersama kw ...
ak twu hanya dia yg kw sayang ..
bkn ak .. ak ta twu ak ta scantek yg kw nak ..
lau kw btul2 syg arn dia ... dan dia btul2 syg arn kw ...
npe dyer nak tnggal arn kw ?
nper kw crik ak blek ?
dlu mse kw couple nan dyer kw maki2 ak ...
kw uat ak nyh cm org yg kw ta knal ,,,
padahal kw knal ak ..
kw knal ak dri kcik ...
ak hope lpas nyh kw brubah ...

AK TA KAN LPE KAN KAW KAWAN